Most of my life, I have dealt with many obstacles. As we are overcoming one obstacle, it seems as another is placed in front of us. The challenges we must overcome! WHEW!!! God will not give us more then we can handle, right? When one door closes another one opens, correct? I must have faith that a new door will open. I must be strong! I must grieve and be grateful! A friend mentioned my new journey to me as that it is the process of a caterpillar becoming of butterfly. I think this is a great way to look at this and find beauty in it!
My husband found a caterpillar at work a few months ago. It was a beautiful little creature, fuzzy and green. Of course, my 8 year old son wanted to keep it, so we did. About two days later it turned itself into a cacoon. It was the most amazing thing, so we kept watch on it daily. We kept him on the patio in a little container. If you picked up the cacoon and placed it in your hand, you could feel the little caterpillar in there moving around, working away at becoming a butterfly and becoming free. Well, time went on and the caccoon started to thin out, so we knew it would be soon. We took the lid off the container, so it could become free when ready. A few days passed and I found the cacoon empty. I looked around the patio for a beautiful butterfly, but there was none to be found. In the corner of the patio on the ground layed a big brown moth. I was in awe! I could not believe that such a beautiful caterpillar, could turn into such a drab looking moth. I thought about this for awhile. I came to the conclusion that, although it had not become a beautiful butterfly, it was finally free. It was no longer held to the ground inching it's way slowly around. It was able to FLY!!! I found beauty in this!!
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Thursday, November 19, 2009
I am thankful....
Today, I feel pretty good. I deserve this after 2 really bad days of relentless pain and sever fatigue. I also experienced what I call sensory overload. This is the most difficult part of Fibromyalgia for me. There is nothing like walking into a room and being able to smell every little smell good and bad. Uggghhhh, this causes me severe nausea. When I have this going on, which is quite frequent, I also must wear ear plugs. It is awful because I can not enjoy some of those beautiful sounds around me because they give me a terrible headache, dizziness and nausea. Also, I must keep the lights very dim. I am learning ways to deal with all of us, like the earplugs, breathing out through my mouth only, not to catch every smell. I am always open to more suggestions. Anyway, i am not going to dwell on the bad things today. Today, is a day to be grateful because I don't have many like them. I am still in my pajamas as usual. LOL I have accomplished quite a bit though. I am taking on the challenge of decluttering my condo, which in turn will help declutter my mind! YAY! I can't wait till this project is done. It may take awhile, but I am learning patience in a whole new way, thanks to fibro. I have managed to put almost all the piles of clean clothes sitting in random places, where they belong. I am also playing catch up and am on the fourth load of laundry. I must take lots of breaks in between doing these things, or else I will pay tomorrow. It is so difficult for me to do this, because I want to be superwoman like I used to, but that is no longer me and I must accept that God has given me many new challenges to overcome and I must learn from them.
I am thankful for so many things today! A new friend of mine, a fellow fibromite, gave me some advice today. She said to try and find beauty in things and this will make you feel better. Boy, is she right! There are so many beautiful things in this world to be thankful for. I am thankful for this gorgeous weather we are having and the fact that I can keep the windows open and still be cool enough and feel the cool breeze upon my face. I think I will clean my windows or I will at least add that to my to do list, don't want to overdo it. I am thankful for my beautiful family and all of their love and support. Remember most days they are dealing with a monster and when you talk to her you never know if she may bite, because she feels so bad. I love my family so much close and far, they have no idea the joy they give me. As for my family here in the house, God Bless them!! They hold me up when I am ready to fall and make me laugh and giggle when I really need it and they let me rest on bad days and try their best to understand. I am grateful that I have been able to stop smoking fairly easy. Yes, I am on the patch.. but never thought I would get this far! I feel the benefits of this already. I am grateful that my husband has a job and can support our family. Times are very tough, but we are managing. I am so fortunate to be able to be home and rest. I am thankful for the ducks in our pond because on really bad days that I don't make it outside I can look out the window and hear them quacking and see them swimming around. There are so many things to be grateful for and I will make a point to notice them every day, whether I am feeling good or bad.
I am thankful for so many things today! A new friend of mine, a fellow fibromite, gave me some advice today. She said to try and find beauty in things and this will make you feel better. Boy, is she right! There are so many beautiful things in this world to be thankful for. I am thankful for this gorgeous weather we are having and the fact that I can keep the windows open and still be cool enough and feel the cool breeze upon my face. I think I will clean my windows or I will at least add that to my to do list, don't want to overdo it. I am thankful for my beautiful family and all of their love and support. Remember most days they are dealing with a monster and when you talk to her you never know if she may bite, because she feels so bad. I love my family so much close and far, they have no idea the joy they give me. As for my family here in the house, God Bless them!! They hold me up when I am ready to fall and make me laugh and giggle when I really need it and they let me rest on bad days and try their best to understand. I am grateful that I have been able to stop smoking fairly easy. Yes, I am on the patch.. but never thought I would get this far! I feel the benefits of this already. I am grateful that my husband has a job and can support our family. Times are very tough, but we are managing. I am so fortunate to be able to be home and rest. I am thankful for the ducks in our pond because on really bad days that I don't make it outside I can look out the window and hear them quacking and see them swimming around. There are so many things to be grateful for and I will make a point to notice them every day, whether I am feeling good or bad.
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Tuesday November 17th, 2009
Hello to all my friends, family and fellow Fibromites! LOL Love that term Fibromites! I picked that up off the NFA page. I have a great support group on Facebook. Anyway, I am new at this whole blogging thing, but I am trying to find my new place in life and I think this will help. I hope to help others along the way as well, by reading my posts.
Well, I have gotten my son off to school this morning and have found myself back in bed! Oh, the joys of being in pain and having no energy! As, I lay here on the heating pad, my mind starts to wander and gravitate towards negativity. I struggle at shifting my thoughts towards positive ones. My step sister also struggles daily, she has ME (myalgic encephalomyelitis) also known as CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome). She has given me the best tidbit of advice that anyone thus far has given to me. The advice is as follows, "Let yourself grieve over the things that you can longer do and be thankful for the things that you can." I have lost my old self in every aspect and my life has/is changing. This sounds like a simple bit of advice, but it is not easy to let your old self die and transform into your new self. This is a grieving procees. I must grieve. I think today, I will let myself just, grieve. I pray for a better tommorow as yesterday was a beautiful gift from God!
Well, I have gotten my son off to school this morning and have found myself back in bed! Oh, the joys of being in pain and having no energy! As, I lay here on the heating pad, my mind starts to wander and gravitate towards negativity. I struggle at shifting my thoughts towards positive ones. My step sister also struggles daily, she has ME (myalgic encephalomyelitis) also known as CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome). She has given me the best tidbit of advice that anyone thus far has given to me. The advice is as follows, "Let yourself grieve over the things that you can longer do and be thankful for the things that you can." I have lost my old self in every aspect and my life has/is changing. This sounds like a simple bit of advice, but it is not easy to let your old self die and transform into your new self. This is a grieving procees. I must grieve. I think today, I will let myself just, grieve. I pray for a better tommorow as yesterday was a beautiful gift from God!
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